It’s been nearly four months since I’ve kept to a consistent
posting schedule. And sadly I can’t say it’s not for a lack of trying, because
that’s exactly what it’s been—a lack of trying.
At first, being back in my last semester of university was
overwhelming. I was taking a full load of courses, working two jobs, an unpaid
internship, and leading two clubs on campus. Not to mention trying to catch up
with friends I hadn’t seen during the summer and meet new people.
I felt drained and the first thing to be cut out of my
schedule was my side projects, and with that my blog. How could I continue to
write about making progress and trying out new things every month when I
wasn’t? It felt like a complete lie.
But what about now that I’ve graduated and have much more
free time to work on projects and do things I love? Well, I’ve been stuck
feeling discouraged that I hadn’t kept up with posting. I had let myself down
and lost confidence in the fact that I could stick to a project for a month.
Even just opening up my site was a reminder that I had failed.
And now I’m trying to remind myself that I made this blog
for myself, for fun. As I used to tell myself every day this summer: the only
failure is giving up. I still have a couple months before I have to renew my
website hosting subscription and I might as well finish strong. So look forward
to new content every Monday and Thursday!